Brothers...
The boot camp was in incredible. Unfortunately I don't remember many details...it's all a blur now. But I remember 2 sarges that progressed quite well. I will use those as reference of how it should be done until I do a better one.
The first night was painful. The whole experience was so outside my reality that at one point I almost cracked. At around 3:00am in Muse and RPQ screaming at me and I thinking about going home and giving up with the whole PUA thing. Later it made me realize how deeply I was in the social matrix. How deeply I had been programmed throughout my life of what is "acceptable" and "not acceptable".
I have to fight and break free from a lifetime of social programming. And as I write this I have an insight that maybe it's not social programming...it has been my own programming all along. Everything that I am right now is because of my own thoughts and actions in the past.
But thanks to RPQ (and all who helped out in this bootcamp) I am now headed in the right direction. He has shown me the door. I must take the red pill and walk through. The journey begins here.
